Which way to go?

Almost 11 o 'clock sleep every day, wake up at 4 or 5 in the morning, in recent years, the mental state is not as good as before, I do not know if I have mental problems, the only sure is that I am very unhappy, is not much trouble? Now life is getting better and better, but I feel more and more vexed, my husband is a hand-off shopkeeper, often on business trips, now there is only one mother-in-law in my mother-in-law's family, my mother-in-law is long-term sick, I usually have to go to work, my mother to help take care of the children, my mother-in-law's family all the big and small things I do, I don't like her character, she speaks very bad, afraid that she will not live. Almost every few days to make a fuss, the two sons are relatively filial, when they came back to take her to the size of Wuhan hospital, and finally came back after a few days in the hospital, we took turns to take care of it, and went home! Every time I go to see her, every time she's just saying, what's the use of having two sons, it's better to have a daughter, nobody cares about her, and then she says it's uncomfortable It's uncomfortable, it's not going to live long, it's annoying. I ask myself I really to my mother-in-law to the point of daughter, I also advised her to find a nanny, our two families to money, she is afraid of spending money, and said that I do not like to have strangers. Old sick is to take care of, I heard this I fried, my own mother for so many years to help me take the child she was hospitalized I did not go to take care of, at that time, the epidemic, the child online class, 7 years old I still brought to the unit, each time the most difficult time did not let my mother-in-law in charge of what, she also want to do, I told my husband, he does not care, think I am very strong, can get it done. I sometimes think I should see my sister-in-law once a year, like my sister-in-law does, so she doesn't bother me all the time. It's sad to be a patient. The problem is, am I the one who made her sick? Why should I? Besides, my health is getting worse and my spirit is not good. In this way, my husband still wants us to live together, I have to work, and to take care of the children, but also to take care of her, really think I am an iron man! ~ For this we have fought many times, my husband also said, you feel tired can resign ~ Ha ha, I work the most happy, I am very angry now, all angry can not sleep, sometimes really want to leave their home… Not that I want to open, or feel too tired, do not know where to go… Should I go to see a psychologist, if I can again I would rather die alone for a lifetime, now for the sake of children also have to live strong, if there is an afterlife, I swear forever with my husband, mother-in-law never meet! Stay away from the mother-in-law, heartless life is the exercise, is to be wronged, which so many smooth things yo… Two sons live in the sand for a month, the previous generation of people's thoughts is to raise children for old age, the concept is not changed, and the atmosphere of the daughter-in-law is kinder. Send her mother-in-law to a nursing home to leave quickly, or else after ten years of cerebral haemorrhage, my heart is tired ~ If you can replace her to die, I am willing to replace her to die ~ even the nanny do not, but also into the nursing home? Your husband's inaction led to your current conflict. You need to talk to your husband. He needs to take responsibility. There is also a situation that the mother-in-law takes care of no matter how good, his two sons will not read your good. So, you know. Come on, wake up… Take care of yourself and Azine and your mother. Those who speak lightly drop, are eating losses still wake up drop team, according to their own heart to go, anyway you are also a kind person… We make more mistakes than we do. You pay more, but in the mother-in-law's heart that a year to see the sister-in-law is a good daughter-in-law!!! Good daughter-in-law divorce, there are plenty of good men out there waiting to pick, why suffer? Good little sister family can not be comforted, comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space take care of your kind little sister family can not comfort comfort yourself. Do not resign, mother-in-law is not innocent, less to go, husband is not innocent, do not hope for him. Fifty percent do good work, thirty percent educate their children, and twenty percent for themselves and their parents. Until the child is independent, you have more and more personal space to take care of yourself whoops who eats her milk, is raised by her, who gives her old age. Your husband is a throw off cadres, married wife is back to serve my mother, the filial piety is not filial, command you this daughter-in-law, really is not a thing. Unless he pays you $180,000 a month, you're gonna have to wait on your own mother! Take care of your mother and children work must not quit your mother-in-law to your husband to see you tangled, neither want to go nor want to from too long I can not see, my colleague's wife was diagnosed with breast cancer, two balls all cut, is doing chemotherapy. As you get older and more stressed, your sleep will get worse and worse, as you normally imagine. Of course, if it is the kind of carefree, or can sleep naturally wake up. Everyone's family environment is different, so there is a saying: to find an object, the other parent is both young and strong, has a pension, and has a good personality. It's no use talking about it now. Sometimes don't be too demanding on yourself, what you can do, what you can do, it doesn't matter if you don't investigate before marriage. Frankly speaking, the more you treat your mother-in-law, the more things she has, the pain here and there, and at every turn, "Is it cancer? I'm dying!" As a woman, it should be understandable that some women are the better she is, the more she makes ah, the so-called "delicate", it is not to say that the older the more sensible, some people the older the more delicate, she said that her sons no matter what she is, is looking for a sense of existence. You as a daughter-in-law, do your duty on the line, regardless of your own son, want you to tube, and finally can only be thankless, most no one will read your good, read your good. Forget it, want to open a point, don't put their gas sick, mother-in-law so, you go less, something let him find your husband! My mother-in-law is very selfish, regardless of her grandson, she went to the mountains for summer vacation, my baby went to care class, and I have no feelings. I am also very entangled, after she is sick, should I serve or not serve? Serving her, I feel sorry for myself; Do not serve, and does not conform to my cognition for so many years, or feel conscience can not go! Just divorced, no kids, feel sorry, read your post feeling relieved, preparing to die alone because you are trapped in the current whirlpool of life. Want to leave, but out of the external force is not enough, passive continuous, mechanical dry